It is unlikely that I can repost by 2008 (the work I've seen) so I now wants to spend a pleasant holiday season! Enjoy! :)
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Monday, November 5, 2007
Pressure Spot To Put Someone To Fall Asleep
ZOOM TO LOVE (27) ZOOM
The transition to motherhood is a funny thing!
This fact, in general, months, years, we want to have a baby, nine months that is waiting impatiently, we're here, reading everything we read on Topic ... How it grows, there, inside our stomach what it perceives or not ... Nine months than we imagine, that prepares its arrival ...
For weeks, that we prepared the bag, bought a bed, small clothes, a stroller, bottles, and all the fuss, short, it's been months since we think of nothing else! More
much else has really matter, you look at his entire life, is projected lifetime, based on this great upheaval ...
There is great love the Father, we can already imagine walking Proudly our baby, giving him food, he's changing diapers, taking him to his first football match, or protecting the bad guy, who one day will remove it ... Everything is already written, codified, and we imagine our lives in perfect scoring of those characters whose They keep their ears for so many years ... since our childhood ... dint of fairy tales, movies and other morons that we, the girls, especially, we love!
And then one day, this baby is for real!
We would urge that, at this moment is being a little lonely at home, to meet after so much emotion and expectation, and the whole opposite happens ...
you are stuck in a clinic, with visits to many people that you love but we do not necessarily want to see, then, immediately in something a bit impersonal and medicalized. It is there, trapped in a single bed, with no place precisely for dad, away from the cozy nest that has been prepared with much care!
So when the first night comes, you feel very lonely ...
We're exhausted, weak, empty this little creature who just arrived, and who deserted our bellies ...
At this point, I have one wish, it takes me in his arms, which is far from this place, and we find ourselves, the three of us live for the happiness which we are entitled!
From that point, logically, the loop of our suffering is complete, we turn to our parents!
Gone are the torments of our childhood, no more gaps, it should now be complete and more fragmented as we were last forever ... But how, when, in the heart of the night, there is one, motherhood, and that it is so far away? "
So we phone for hours ... But the voice does not replace the arms ... And finally, after several hours, it falls so tired, we fell asleep ... but not happy, not filled !
I did not understand not sure what happened, what happened to me!
I should be happy ... Being a mother, it's been months that I waited more than anything ...
But I wanted to be a mother, or start my own family to suffer less? 
The transition to motherhood is a funny thing!
This fact, in general, months, years, we want to have a baby, nine months that is waiting impatiently, we're here, reading everything we read on Topic ... How it grows, there, inside our stomach what it perceives or not ... Nine months than we imagine, that prepares its arrival ...
For weeks, that we prepared the bag, bought a bed, small clothes, a stroller, bottles, and all the fuss, short, it's been months since we think of nothing else! More
much else has really matter, you look at his entire life, is projected lifetime, based on this great upheaval ...
There is great love the Father, we can already imagine walking Proudly our baby, giving him food, he's changing diapers, taking him to his first football match, or protecting the bad guy, who one day will remove it ... Everything is already written, codified, and we imagine our lives in perfect scoring of those characters whose They keep their ears for so many years ... since our childhood ... dint of fairy tales, movies and other morons that we, the girls, especially, we love!
And then one day, this baby is for real!
We would urge that, at this moment is being a little lonely at home, to meet after so much emotion and expectation, and the whole opposite happens ...
you are stuck in a clinic, with visits to many people that you love but we do not necessarily want to see, then, immediately in something a bit impersonal and medicalized. It is there, trapped in a single bed, with no place precisely for dad, away from the cozy nest that has been prepared with much care!
So when the first night comes, you feel very lonely ...
We're exhausted, weak, empty this little creature who just arrived, and who deserted our bellies ...
At this point, I have one wish, it takes me in his arms, which is far from this place, and we find ourselves, the three of us live for the happiness which we are entitled!
From that point, logically, the loop of our suffering is complete, we turn to our parents!
Gone are the torments of our childhood, no more gaps, it should now be complete and more fragmented as we were last forever ... But how, when, in the heart of the night, there is one, motherhood, and that it is so far away? "
So we phone for hours ... But the voice does not replace the arms ... And finally, after several hours, it falls so tired, we fell asleep ... but not happy, not filled !
I did not understand not sure what happened, what happened to me!
I should be happy ... Being a mother, it's been months that I waited more than anything ...
But I wanted to be a mother, or start my own family to suffer less?
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Dawn Tied Up In A Pokemon Episode
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I expected it!
Oddly, I had to be mom, and it's not my daughter who was at the nursery that I missed, but my mom to me.
I was hurt, I was exhausted, too many emotions, I was not sure where I was, and suddenly I had one wish, it finally arrives, she asks the nurses to give me something so I can finally get some sleep, rest, she reassures me, in short, she cares for me!
must say that after giving birth, I was back in my room that I shared this night with another lady, and nobody took care of me!
I was hurt, I could not close my eyes, I felt that this was not normal at all, and everyone cared.
Besides, the lady beside me, who had given birth on her late night, not suffering at all ... The epidural had worked perfectly, it was quiet, she was resting.
She even called the nurses so she saw that I suffered, but apparently nobody cared, as if I was super cozy when I'm really resistant to evil!
So when I saw my mom get in the room ... What joy!
her, immediately she saw that I was wrong. She went to the nurses, and to their lack of reaction, she called my uncle (a doctor), who immediately called the clinic to ask them to give me something ...
So I was given something, and, miraculously, after a moment, I I had less pain and, finally, I thought I could get some rest!
We were in the late morning and the nurse brought me back my daughter in the room for me to change and I give him his bottle!
I was quite unable, then, my mum did ...
first layer, and first big poo as a gift! lol
I watched a little absent, stupefied with fatigue !
Then we brought the first bottle, and it is also my mom gave him.
I can still see, here before me in the room, my mother standing, and my daughter in her arms. It was beautiful, but at the same time, it seemed a little off ...
My mom looked so happy, it made me so happy to see her and she was beautiful!
Me, I was wallowing in my bed, exhausted, and requiring only thing sleeping ... Finally!
We were all late morning, I had not slept for more than 24 hours, and I had just given birth ... I need sleep.
But I forgot we were on Saturday and that the visits would begin!
Lesson learned: never again deliver a weekend! lol
It began with the change of room ... I could now benefit from a single room that was released.
was super cute, pink, and brand new!
So I was transferred and installed.
Then the whole family came, in full, each in turn.
Frank arrived with his parents, but then he had made everything beautiful that night, that day, he arrived not very fresh eye, an old shirt on his back, uncombed, short, not great to meet the whole family ... also had a little watered birth obviously!
I was super spoiled by everyone, flowers for mom, and gifts for the little one!
But I must admit, although I was delighted to see my grandmother, my aunt and my parents, I had one wish, to rest.
Frank's family is, too, come see us, but hey, I did not have too many atoms hooked together!
And then in the evening, finally, everyone is gone, and I thought I was finally able to sleep.
I had that day, could give the bottle to my daughter, but not change it, because I had a little trouble getting up ...
The first night was ...
----- 
I expected it!
Oddly, I had to be mom, and it's not my daughter who was at the nursery that I missed, but my mom to me.
I was hurt, I was exhausted, too many emotions, I was not sure where I was, and suddenly I had one wish, it finally arrives, she asks the nurses to give me something so I can finally get some sleep, rest, she reassures me, in short, she cares for me!
must say that after giving birth, I was back in my room that I shared this night with another lady, and nobody took care of me!
I was hurt, I could not close my eyes, I felt that this was not normal at all, and everyone cared.
Besides, the lady beside me, who had given birth on her late night, not suffering at all ... The epidural had worked perfectly, it was quiet, she was resting.
She even called the nurses so she saw that I suffered, but apparently nobody cared, as if I was super cozy when I'm really resistant to evil!
So when I saw my mom get in the room ... What joy!
her, immediately she saw that I was wrong. She went to the nurses, and to their lack of reaction, she called my uncle (a doctor), who immediately called the clinic to ask them to give me something ...
So I was given something, and, miraculously, after a moment, I I had less pain and, finally, I thought I could get some rest!
We were in the late morning and the nurse brought me back my daughter in the room for me to change and I give him his bottle!
I was quite unable, then, my mum did ...
first layer, and first big poo as a gift! lol
I watched a little absent, stupefied with fatigue !
Then we brought the first bottle, and it is also my mom gave him.
I can still see, here before me in the room, my mother standing, and my daughter in her arms. It was beautiful, but at the same time, it seemed a little off ...
My mom looked so happy, it made me so happy to see her and she was beautiful!
Me, I was wallowing in my bed, exhausted, and requiring only thing sleeping ... Finally!
We were all late morning, I had not slept for more than 24 hours, and I had just given birth ... I need sleep.
But I forgot we were on Saturday and that the visits would begin!
Lesson learned: never again deliver a weekend! lol
It began with the change of room ... I could now benefit from a single room that was released.
was super cute, pink, and brand new!
So I was transferred and installed.
Then the whole family came, in full, each in turn.
Frank arrived with his parents, but then he had made everything beautiful that night, that day, he arrived not very fresh eye, an old shirt on his back, uncombed, short, not great to meet the whole family ... also had a little watered birth obviously!
I was super spoiled by everyone, flowers for mom, and gifts for the little one!
But I must admit, although I was delighted to see my grandmother, my aunt and my parents, I had one wish, to rest.
Frank's family is, too, come see us, but hey, I did not have too many atoms hooked together!
And then in the evening, finally, everyone is gone, and I thought I was finally able to sleep.
I had that day, could give the bottle to my daughter, but not change it, because I had a little trouble getting up ...
The first night was ...
-----
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Using Pilates Ring 4 Bow Legs
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That's it, my baby ... I hear screaming ...
Frank enters the room.
Later he tells me that when he heard me yell, he failed to enter the room for all boxers!
I was tending my baby, Frank is beside me ...
But this baby, it is dirty, full of blood, and when the wise woman behind me telling me "hold madam, take your baby" I look at it and say "I do not know ..." ... It's
understand what was happening, because immediately, she said, wait, I'll put it in a cloth. She then grabbed a diaper and has wiped off a bit and put it on my belly.
was weird ... What relationship was there between the baby was in my belly, and this small perhaps we had just put on me?
I think I do not quite understand what was happening ...
I watched her, she was beautiful, I asked if it was a girl when she came out ... I afraid to have bought everything in pink, and it is a boy, it would not have been perfect!
She still had a weird face ... all in length, with a skull-shaped cone ... We had series with Frank ... the midwife had reassured us by telling us it was normal and that it would resume a normal form .
Then, quickly, I had taken this baby, he had gone with his father to the bathroom and first aid.
Me, I stayed there, alone again, empty, to expel the placenta, and sew up the episiotomy ...
This seemed like hours.
After a time, Frank came back with our daughter. I have been putting in these cradles transparencies that are found in all maternity wards.
I had chosen the pajamas we had put him. A wise woman I had been kindly requested.
We stayed there for a moment all three, to smile, to watch. She was so beautiful ... We managed to make such a pretty baby ...
It was 0:40, October 5 when she was born.
I asked Frank to tell my parents that were there, but I do not know.
I could see them before you start delivery, but Frank had warned too late.
I asked to see them, but the team refused because it was too late.
I told Frank to go home because I had to stay in the delivery room for another two hours, before going into a room.
In addition, for tonight, I'd be in a room with two beds ... I always
contractions, I suffered a lot, I was exhausted!
I asked what I was given a sedative, but nothing!
After two hours, was not finally settle down in a bed but not sleep, I still had contractions ... I had contractions 10 hours overnight!
And much, having contractions for the baby, we're prepared, but then you can not stand!
The next morning, finally, the first time, mom was coming! 
That's it, my baby ... I hear screaming ...
Frank enters the room.
Later he tells me that when he heard me yell, he failed to enter the room for all boxers!
I was tending my baby, Frank is beside me ...
But this baby, it is dirty, full of blood, and when the wise woman behind me telling me "hold madam, take your baby" I look at it and say "I do not know ..." ... It's
understand what was happening, because immediately, she said, wait, I'll put it in a cloth. She then grabbed a diaper and has wiped off a bit and put it on my belly.
was weird ... What relationship was there between the baby was in my belly, and this small perhaps we had just put on me?
I think I do not quite understand what was happening ...
I watched her, she was beautiful, I asked if it was a girl when she came out ... I afraid to have bought everything in pink, and it is a boy, it would not have been perfect!
She still had a weird face ... all in length, with a skull-shaped cone ... We had series with Frank ... the midwife had reassured us by telling us it was normal and that it would resume a normal form .
Then, quickly, I had taken this baby, he had gone with his father to the bathroom and first aid.
Me, I stayed there, alone again, empty, to expel the placenta, and sew up the episiotomy ...
This seemed like hours.
After a time, Frank came back with our daughter. I have been putting in these cradles transparencies that are found in all maternity wards.
I had chosen the pajamas we had put him. A wise woman I had been kindly requested.
We stayed there for a moment all three, to smile, to watch. She was so beautiful ... We managed to make such a pretty baby ...
It was 0:40, October 5 when she was born.
I asked Frank to tell my parents that were there, but I do not know.
I could see them before you start delivery, but Frank had warned too late.
I asked to see them, but the team refused because it was too late.
I told Frank to go home because I had to stay in the delivery room for another two hours, before going into a room.
In addition, for tonight, I'd be in a room with two beds ... I always
contractions, I suffered a lot, I was exhausted!
I asked what I was given a sedative, but nothing!
After two hours, was not finally settle down in a bed but not sleep, I still had contractions ... I had contractions 10 hours overnight!
And much, having contractions for the baby, we're prepared, but then you can not stand!
The next morning, finally, the first time, mom was coming!
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Fairweather Prom Dresses Toronto
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So here I came to the floor of the maternity
... At first I was going to give birth soon!
Normally, everything should be fine. A normal delivery. It was X-rayed to see if the baby went right through my pelvis, and there were no problems.
I remember those radios had to squirm, but when you're close to 140 pounds, contort when we are pregnant with 7 or 8 months, it was not easy.
was the first time I felt discomfort for a medical exam! We then settle down
on a bed, and start monitoring.
Monitoring is something really funny! It installs two
bedchamber belly straps, with two sensors, one for the baby's heart and one for contacts.
therefore means the baby's heart beat, and we measure the frequency and intensity of contractions.
Good, contacts, there were good, but they were totally ineffective!
That explained my discomfort the day before and the fact that I feel so tired today.
Frank was gone for a while and get my affairs, and it did not come back! I began to find the time long! Nurses for that matter!
his return was expected for a long time so he can bring me a large t-shirt or a nightgown before I branch perf, because after it was complicated.
Then, after several hours (two or three), we could not wait, you had to pass me in the delivery room and make me an injection of a product to induce labor more effectively.
So totally naked I joined the delivery room that resembled nothing so much as an operating room!
What a funny place to host a baby! A cold universe, medicalized ... so we just want a cozy ... But hey, it was pretty much as bad as elsewhere in this brand new maternity and super modern.
So here I installed, I was infused, it puts the monitor, and go!
Ah! The first contractions ... and it's not funny at all ... damn, it hurts! Franck finished
not come in costume ...?!
Had taken so long is that he had taken the time to take a shower, combing hair, shaving, and dressing in a suit, tie, etc..
When he arrived in the delivery room, all smartly dressed and with her gown and slippers in blue paper, I died laughing!
I ask him why he dressed like that and he said he would be good to welcome his daughter? "
thus began a long wait ... It was 17-18 hours.
It was! I was going to have a baby!
I was pretty chilled, I was not afraid.
However, I was in pain.
Breathe, breathe, take the dog ... All that was really nice, but I had trouble.
Frank tried to laugh with me, to relax!
That damn machine that was used to measure the contractions had become my enemy.
Between each contraction, the display was zero, and then the contraction was more powerful, the more he rode ... I saw the numbers climb, I was wrong, and I was wondering when it would stop!
Frank joked, saying: Well, no, there you are up to 27 is not much, trying to improve your score ...
Until then, the service was super quiet, but tonight We were three women to give birth ... Nothing in the day, and we had all decided this evening!
A midwife came to see me regularly, and do the "inspection" of the cervix ...
She ends up deciding it was time for the epidural.
Owl !
So we asked Frank to come out, then made me sit down, and I was stuck a needle in the back and injected a drug!
was supposed m'anesthésier entire lower body! I'm still waiting ?!!!!
must say that the work was not moving very fast, they had the dose for the trigger ... twice!
And then, suddenly, when I heard that there was already stirring in the hallway because another woman was giving birth, I felt something weird ... As an urge to push ... nay, a desire, a need!
I had already lost the water ... and preparation for childbirth, although we had discussed this point we need to push ... It does not quite understand when they speak, but then I saw exactly what they meant!
So I asked Frank to go look for someone there, I gave birth ...
He looked at me with astonishment, saying, bah wait there they are busy ...
hey, how are you, they are busy, but I'm mad me, I give birth here, now! We need to pick someone.
At this point, I saw the first signs of panic in his eyes! Until then, he did well, or at least he tried, with a few jokes, but now it's scary!
He came to understand that the baby was coming ...
So he ran off and went looking for someone.
The midwife arrived and called for reinforcements, crying a little ...
was panic ... injected products were eventually have an effect ...
Half an hour ago we thought we had more time, but now the baby was there! He wanted out!
panic on board, the physician is currently completing a delivery, and nothing is ready for me! Quick
we install the brackets, we settle down properly, and it begins ...
When I tell you, push you ma'am!
Euhhh, until then, I was Zen, but that now was the great, great panic.
I had one wish, that my mother is there to hold my hand!
My whole body was shaking ... They told me to push, but I had trouble! It had been hours since I endured contractions, epidural and fucking there was no difference. I felt great my feet, my legs and my pelvis ...
I also felt the baby's head that did not pass!
I do not know why but I asked Frank to leave.
This time I felt very intimate, and I did not want him to see me well, maybe.
So he went out, the wise women came to help me ...
I still remember yelling at the doctor telling me ... Him: Push Madam, and I answered him, but I push, but you do not see it does not! I feel it's going to rip me!
He then spent some Vaseline, and ultimately played an episiotomy.
And then, oh miracle, the baby comes out ...
At this point, I immediately felt a great emptiness, as if something had been sucked out of me, a great sadness, great and deep ... This time, even today, when I think I can almost feel it physically.
Again, I was empty to myself! 
So here I came to the floor of the maternity
... At first I was going to give birth soon!
Normally, everything should be fine. A normal delivery. It was X-rayed to see if the baby went right through my pelvis, and there were no problems.
I remember those radios had to squirm, but when you're close to 140 pounds, contort when we are pregnant with 7 or 8 months, it was not easy.
was the first time I felt discomfort for a medical exam! We then settle down
on a bed, and start monitoring.
Monitoring is something really funny! It installs two
bedchamber belly straps, with two sensors, one for the baby's heart and one for contacts.
therefore means the baby's heart beat, and we measure the frequency and intensity of contractions.
Good, contacts, there were good, but they were totally ineffective!
That explained my discomfort the day before and the fact that I feel so tired today.
Frank was gone for a while and get my affairs, and it did not come back! I began to find the time long! Nurses for that matter!
his return was expected for a long time so he can bring me a large t-shirt or a nightgown before I branch perf, because after it was complicated.
Then, after several hours (two or three), we could not wait, you had to pass me in the delivery room and make me an injection of a product to induce labor more effectively.
So totally naked I joined the delivery room that resembled nothing so much as an operating room!
What a funny place to host a baby! A cold universe, medicalized ... so we just want a cozy ... But hey, it was pretty much as bad as elsewhere in this brand new maternity and super modern.
So here I installed, I was infused, it puts the monitor, and go!
Ah! The first contractions ... and it's not funny at all ... damn, it hurts! Franck finished
not come in costume ...?!
Had taken so long is that he had taken the time to take a shower, combing hair, shaving, and dressing in a suit, tie, etc..
When he arrived in the delivery room, all smartly dressed and with her gown and slippers in blue paper, I died laughing!
I ask him why he dressed like that and he said he would be good to welcome his daughter? "
thus began a long wait ... It was 17-18 hours.
It was! I was going to have a baby!
I was pretty chilled, I was not afraid.
However, I was in pain.
Breathe, breathe, take the dog ... All that was really nice, but I had trouble.
Frank tried to laugh with me, to relax!
That damn machine that was used to measure the contractions had become my enemy.
Between each contraction, the display was zero, and then the contraction was more powerful, the more he rode ... I saw the numbers climb, I was wrong, and I was wondering when it would stop!
Frank joked, saying: Well, no, there you are up to 27 is not much, trying to improve your score ...
Until then, the service was super quiet, but tonight We were three women to give birth ... Nothing in the day, and we had all decided this evening!
A midwife came to see me regularly, and do the "inspection" of the cervix ...
She ends up deciding it was time for the epidural.
Owl !
So we asked Frank to come out, then made me sit down, and I was stuck a needle in the back and injected a drug!
was supposed m'anesthésier entire lower body! I'm still waiting ?!!!!
must say that the work was not moving very fast, they had the dose for the trigger ... twice!
And then, suddenly, when I heard that there was already stirring in the hallway because another woman was giving birth, I felt something weird ... As an urge to push ... nay, a desire, a need!
I had already lost the water ... and preparation for childbirth, although we had discussed this point we need to push ... It does not quite understand when they speak, but then I saw exactly what they meant!
So I asked Frank to go look for someone there, I gave birth ...
He looked at me with astonishment, saying, bah wait there they are busy ...
hey, how are you, they are busy, but I'm mad me, I give birth here, now! We need to pick someone.
At this point, I saw the first signs of panic in his eyes! Until then, he did well, or at least he tried, with a few jokes, but now it's scary!
He came to understand that the baby was coming ...
So he ran off and went looking for someone.
The midwife arrived and called for reinforcements, crying a little ...
was panic ... injected products were eventually have an effect ...
Half an hour ago we thought we had more time, but now the baby was there! He wanted out!
panic on board, the physician is currently completing a delivery, and nothing is ready for me! Quick
we install the brackets, we settle down properly, and it begins ...
When I tell you, push you ma'am!
Euhhh, until then, I was Zen, but that now was the great, great panic.
I had one wish, that my mother is there to hold my hand!
My whole body was shaking ... They told me to push, but I had trouble! It had been hours since I endured contractions, epidural and fucking there was no difference. I felt great my feet, my legs and my pelvis ...
I also felt the baby's head that did not pass!
I do not know why but I asked Frank to leave.
This time I felt very intimate, and I did not want him to see me well, maybe.
So he went out, the wise women came to help me ...
I still remember yelling at the doctor telling me ... Him: Push Madam, and I answered him, but I push, but you do not see it does not! I feel it's going to rip me!
He then spent some Vaseline, and ultimately played an episiotomy.
And then, oh miracle, the baby comes out ...
At this point, I immediately felt a great emptiness, as if something had been sucked out of me, a great sadness, great and deep ... This time, even today, when I think I can almost feel it physically.
Again, I was empty to myself!
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
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The name was chosen, and we expected it more!
The last ultrasound showed one baby in good shape, but was not big enough ... I had to take a rest.
I was happy, excited. However, there was a small snag.
Although I had not gained weight, but as I was big, it was not really that I was pregnant.
I did not know what great happiness to see my belly rounder, until they become so round impression that he is going to explode!
Yes, I was more round, for sure, but the fat that covered my stomach did not give him this round aspect and tense ... I seemed mostly bigger than usual!
I was unhappy about this because when one is expecting a baby, you want to tell everyone to shout from the rooftops, the show ... And, ipso facto, that is what is normally passes ... Not easy to hide her pregnancy when you're thin?!
It was very hot that summer! It was horrible!
past two weeks, I could not more waiting ... Now, he must come to this little bundle of joy!
I still eventually get some rest at the very end of pregnancy ...
I was within days of birth, and I was exhausted. It was early October, and the birth was scheduled for 7 ...
October 3, at the time of going to bed, while Frank was watching television, I was taking a terrible dizzy ... But I ... went to bed and I slept.
The next morning, Frank had gone or job, and I I stayed in bed ... I was a little smeared, I felt "weird" and tired.
Understandably so I called the maternity told me he had come.
Anyway, my business and those of the baby were available for 3 months!
So I went to shower, but I do not feel I was only going to motherhood, I was tired.
Frank had not been allowed to board his driver's license, but that does not prevent him from taking the car from time to time!
On his return from work, so we're both gone to motherhood like that, nothing. Check
there, my OB was not there, but there was another doctor. I had already met during my consultations.
arriving in his office, I could not help but tell him he had beautiful blue eyes! I do not know what came over me, and when I look back, I'm mortified.
I was nine months pregnant, and I'd just tell him that, by lying down on the couch! In
m'auscultant it found that I had contractions and I had to make up for monitoring.
Me, I got there, hands in pockets ... So I sent Frank to the house to get my business.
It should be 14 hours! 
The name was chosen, and we expected it more!
The last ultrasound showed one baby in good shape, but was not big enough ... I had to take a rest.
I was happy, excited. However, there was a small snag.
Although I had not gained weight, but as I was big, it was not really that I was pregnant.
I did not know what great happiness to see my belly rounder, until they become so round impression that he is going to explode!
Yes, I was more round, for sure, but the fat that covered my stomach did not give him this round aspect and tense ... I seemed mostly bigger than usual!
I was unhappy about this because when one is expecting a baby, you want to tell everyone to shout from the rooftops, the show ... And, ipso facto, that is what is normally passes ... Not easy to hide her pregnancy when you're thin?!
It was very hot that summer! It was horrible!
past two weeks, I could not more waiting ... Now, he must come to this little bundle of joy!
I still eventually get some rest at the very end of pregnancy ...
I was within days of birth, and I was exhausted. It was early October, and the birth was scheduled for 7 ...
October 3, at the time of going to bed, while Frank was watching television, I was taking a terrible dizzy ... But I ... went to bed and I slept.
The next morning, Frank had gone or job, and I I stayed in bed ... I was a little smeared, I felt "weird" and tired.
Understandably so I called the maternity told me he had come.
Anyway, my business and those of the baby were available for 3 months!
So I went to shower, but I do not feel I was only going to motherhood, I was tired.
Frank had not been allowed to board his driver's license, but that does not prevent him from taking the car from time to time!
On his return from work, so we're both gone to motherhood like that, nothing. Check
there, my OB was not there, but there was another doctor. I had already met during my consultations.
arriving in his office, I could not help but tell him he had beautiful blue eyes! I do not know what came over me, and when I look back, I'm mortified.
I was nine months pregnant, and I'd just tell him that, by lying down on the couch! In
m'auscultant it found that I had contractions and I had to make up for monitoring.
Me, I got there, hands in pockets ... So I sent Frank to the house to get my business.
It should be 14 hours!
Sunday, October 21, 2007
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My daily time was punctuated by the comings and goings of Franck. I lived in his performance, according to his job.
side food, this was no better, but it was not worse.
We always ate together in the evening, and during the day, I eat ... As usual ... My diet had not changed an inch ... I always ate the same food, just as little variety!
I found it impossible to always try something I did not know.
We were preparing the arrival of this baby, well, mostly me.
Franck him, saw that I was pregnant, but I think for men it is much more abstract.
We, girls, we have this tremendous opportunity, feel this baby grow up in us. We are mother before birth.
I was mom of this baby as soon as I saw him at the first ultrasound. We already saw
human form ... I remember I was watching the screen, and my belly, then the screen again, and my stomach ... No doubt, what I saw on screen was well what was in my belly ... a baby ... Not a projection baby, but a little creature with a head, two arms, two legs ... someone?!
And then there was that moment you never forget. He or night, lying on the couch, I felt a movement, then everything inside of me ... like the thrill of two small wings of butterflies ... the first kicks or movements of the baby ... We do not quite understand what is happening ... No, it can not be right, it would be wonderful too ... So there are many ... It is there ... It moves!
We cry stupidly, it is invaded by emotion ... and we always feel positively by this exceptional moment!
How not aware at this point, we will become a mother? "
There is also this other time, or we are told the sex of the baby ...
Up there, there was talk of having a child. They imagined a baby though ... But once you get sex, it is projected ... We bought the first ... pajamas. Blue or pink!
Buying First pajamas, it is also becoming a mother ...
Franck him all that he had not lived together. He had not been present at the time of ultrasound, for example!
It must be said that 16 years ago, men were still very much the top!
It was barely out of the traditional role of the father, distant with her children ... Just!
Finally, it would be for us ... pink!
Yes, we were having a girl!
We had agreed, if it was a boy, I chose the name, if it was he was a girl ... I wanted a name
sweet as Sophie, Marjorie, Charlotte, or Alizee But ... I had a choice between Fabio and Jennifer? "
Have you noticed how some names are a strong connotation?
I saw Fabio when I was a kid! A real pest!
So, the choice was quick! 
My daily time was punctuated by the comings and goings of Franck. I lived in his performance, according to his job.
side food, this was no better, but it was not worse.
We always ate together in the evening, and during the day, I eat ... As usual ... My diet had not changed an inch ... I always ate the same food, just as little variety!
I found it impossible to always try something I did not know.
We were preparing the arrival of this baby, well, mostly me.
Franck him, saw that I was pregnant, but I think for men it is much more abstract.
We, girls, we have this tremendous opportunity, feel this baby grow up in us. We are mother before birth.
I was mom of this baby as soon as I saw him at the first ultrasound. We already saw
human form ... I remember I was watching the screen, and my belly, then the screen again, and my stomach ... No doubt, what I saw on screen was well what was in my belly ... a baby ... Not a projection baby, but a little creature with a head, two arms, two legs ... someone?!
And then there was that moment you never forget. He or night, lying on the couch, I felt a movement, then everything inside of me ... like the thrill of two small wings of butterflies ... the first kicks or movements of the baby ... We do not quite understand what is happening ... No, it can not be right, it would be wonderful too ... So there are many ... It is there ... It moves!
We cry stupidly, it is invaded by emotion ... and we always feel positively by this exceptional moment!
How not aware at this point, we will become a mother? "
There is also this other time, or we are told the sex of the baby ...
Up there, there was talk of having a child. They imagined a baby though ... But once you get sex, it is projected ... We bought the first ... pajamas. Blue or pink!
Buying First pajamas, it is also becoming a mother ...
Franck him all that he had not lived together. He had not been present at the time of ultrasound, for example!
It must be said that 16 years ago, men were still very much the top!
It was barely out of the traditional role of the father, distant with her children ... Just!
Finally, it would be for us ... pink!
Yes, we were having a girl!
We had agreed, if it was a boy, I chose the name, if it was he was a girl ... I wanted a name
sweet as Sophie, Marjorie, Charlotte, or Alizee But ... I had a choice between Fabio and Jennifer? "
Have you noticed how some names are a strong connotation?
I saw Fabio when I was a kid! A real pest!
So, the choice was quick!
Friday, October 19, 2007
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D ZOOM LOVE (21) ZOOM
And if, after all, both our wanderings, our two evils, you could do something good?
And if, finally, the story ended well, like in the movies ... why not?
Why not give us a chance to do it, why do not happen, we also build our love nest, our cocoon, away from our childhood and the pain, away from the daily that sometimes attacks us?
Why not try this luck?
After everything else to come well, why not us, why not me?
And then I could understand, I had to understand and love him even more, and was certain, as through love, I would save him, I would save us.
For now, there was only one thing mattered little creature that was growing inside me.
I bought a book on pregnancy that explained the baby's development week by week.
It became my favorite book, I think I know by heart! I did not want to miss anything, I wanted to know everything!
So, during these nine months, my life has been punctuated by the pending this baby. Nothing else mattered most, as I was protected.
It grew in me, and I was not alone ... Never again will I'll be alone!
Frank lost his job, has found another of the same kind as far, but no longer accessible.
I stopped working, I was cut off from everyone ... There was the alley on weekends, alcohol, and between these periods, the week where everything went fairly well.
As I was not working, I spent some time with my parents who, themselves, bumps again!
With my mother, we prepared the arrival this baby ... It was a "joint" ...
Everything had to be perfect ... I went to buy a super nice room, a nice dresser, and a super bed ... and all it took to receive the child already king.
health side, everything was pretty good, if we exclude the fact that I threw up for 9 months ... but you get used very quickly!
I had not gained weight, not a gram. I was in shape, I spent my time walking!
My mother told me that I would not give birth in a supermarket! She was not wrong !
The gynecologist who has followed me throughout my pregnancy was absolutely brilliant. At no time did she made me feel guilty, never a comment. She always considered a normal mom, she accompanied the better to achieve the end of pregnancy the most fulfilling.
Nine months during which I, too, as I was enveloped by a pseudo uterus protecting me from the outside ... Neither blows nor money problems that loomed not really reach me ... 
And if, after all, both our wanderings, our two evils, you could do something good?
And if, finally, the story ended well, like in the movies ... why not?
Why not give us a chance to do it, why do not happen, we also build our love nest, our cocoon, away from our childhood and the pain, away from the daily that sometimes attacks us?
Why not try this luck?
After everything else to come well, why not us, why not me?
And then I could understand, I had to understand and love him even more, and was certain, as through love, I would save him, I would save us.
For now, there was only one thing mattered little creature that was growing inside me.
I bought a book on pregnancy that explained the baby's development week by week.
It became my favorite book, I think I know by heart! I did not want to miss anything, I wanted to know everything!
So, during these nine months, my life has been punctuated by the pending this baby. Nothing else mattered most, as I was protected.
It grew in me, and I was not alone ... Never again will I'll be alone!
Frank lost his job, has found another of the same kind as far, but no longer accessible.
I stopped working, I was cut off from everyone ... There was the alley on weekends, alcohol, and between these periods, the week where everything went fairly well.
As I was not working, I spent some time with my parents who, themselves, bumps again!
With my mother, we prepared the arrival this baby ... It was a "joint" ...
Everything had to be perfect ... I went to buy a super nice room, a nice dresser, and a super bed ... and all it took to receive the child already king.
health side, everything was pretty good, if we exclude the fact that I threw up for 9 months ... but you get used very quickly!
I had not gained weight, not a gram. I was in shape, I spent my time walking!
My mother told me that I would not give birth in a supermarket! She was not wrong !
The gynecologist who has followed me throughout my pregnancy was absolutely brilliant. At no time did she made me feel guilty, never a comment. She always considered a normal mom, she accompanied the better to achieve the end of pregnancy the most fulfilling.
Nine months during which I, too, as I was enveloped by a pseudo uterus protecting me from the outside ... Neither blows nor money problems that loomed not really reach me ...
Thursday, October 18, 2007
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OF LOVE (20) ZOOM
Yet
shots, he began to be there regularly.
all started with both or one of his buddies came home.
They had booze together, and finally had a little quarrel.
So I had separated, and I took Frank into the hallway to calm him.
While I spoke, I took a mighty head in the nose!
as I was stunned.
This gesture left me panting like drunk myself.
I do not understand what had happened.
We talked about the following days, but I was forgiven.
Another time, another of his friends had come home to dinner.
They had booze (as usual!), And played cards.
was a very old friend of Frank, and he had a real bad influence on him.
was his partner for playing bocce, and it was he, an alcoholic, seriously ill. He drank every day in the morning. He led
Franck, who did not need it, every weekend.
That evening, therefore, when they had been drinking heavily, and the tone went up, Frank had to pick up another bottle.
Quietly, I told him that it might be better to stop.
Not that I do not understand why, when I was pregnant, he started hitting me, making me fall, and giving me a kick when I was on the ground!
Memories ... Memories ... My life would she then made as this? Violence?
I had taken refuge in the room, crying ... and I still forgave ... As I have forgiven every time!
My enemy, in this situation, it was not Franck, but alcohol!
How could I blame him. When he was not drunk, it was a lovely boy.
And it was not his fault that he drank.
In her family, everyone Picolit more or less. During the wake, everybody was more or less drunk, and a meal without alcohol was not a real meal. If we were going home, we could not, as they said, start on one leg, he had to take at least two drinks! It was a good franchouillard alcoholism, common, ordinary.
And then there was always this great sadness in his beautiful blue eyes.
I remember like it was yesterday, this day he was sick.
It was a lot of temperature, so I had prepared his medicines. He was lying on the couch, he was cold, I went to get a blanket.
Smiling, I had "surrounded" and a kiss. He had taken my hand and told me that nobody had ever done that.
I still get goose bumps. I can still hear his words resonate. His parents, he received a lot of slaps, but obviously some affection! How
him wish it had been so unhappy! 
Yet
shots, he began to be there regularly.
all started with both or one of his buddies came home.
They had booze together, and finally had a little quarrel.
So I had separated, and I took Frank into the hallway to calm him.
While I spoke, I took a mighty head in the nose!
as I was stunned.
This gesture left me panting like drunk myself.
I do not understand what had happened.
We talked about the following days, but I was forgiven.
Another time, another of his friends had come home to dinner.
They had booze (as usual!), And played cards.
was a very old friend of Frank, and he had a real bad influence on him.
was his partner for playing bocce, and it was he, an alcoholic, seriously ill. He drank every day in the morning. He led
Franck, who did not need it, every weekend.
That evening, therefore, when they had been drinking heavily, and the tone went up, Frank had to pick up another bottle.
Quietly, I told him that it might be better to stop.
Not that I do not understand why, when I was pregnant, he started hitting me, making me fall, and giving me a kick when I was on the ground!
Memories ... Memories ... My life would she then made as this? Violence?
I had taken refuge in the room, crying ... and I still forgave ... As I have forgiven every time!
My enemy, in this situation, it was not Franck, but alcohol!
How could I blame him. When he was not drunk, it was a lovely boy.
And it was not his fault that he drank.
In her family, everyone Picolit more or less. During the wake, everybody was more or less drunk, and a meal without alcohol was not a real meal. If we were going home, we could not, as they said, start on one leg, he had to take at least two drinks! It was a good franchouillard alcoholism, common, ordinary.
And then there was always this great sadness in his beautiful blue eyes.
I remember like it was yesterday, this day he was sick.
It was a lot of temperature, so I had prepared his medicines. He was lying on the couch, he was cold, I went to get a blanket.
Smiling, I had "surrounded" and a kiss. He had taken my hand and told me that nobody had ever done that.
I still get goose bumps. I can still hear his words resonate. His parents, he received a lot of slaps, but obviously some affection! How
him wish it had been so unhappy!
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
South Park Watch English Subtitle
OF LOVE (19) ZOOM
I resumed relations with my mother was less tense.
But when she knew I was unemployed, she did not appreciate, I was treated to a scene!
Frank, himself, was still working in his service station.
It began in the late afternoon and ended at midnight.
Besides it had played a significant role in the fact that I dropped my job.
I was tired by the early months of pregnancy, but it was not all!
He had no driver's license because he was sweet made for driving while intoxicated, even before we moved together.
It should therefore take public transportation to go to work.
His job was pretty far from home. To get there late in the day, it was complicated, but it was possible, but at night, returning at midnight, you can not take public transportation.
Suddenly, I had to get him.
I left work so early in the morning, then instead of going home, I spent the evening with Valerie in Saint Denis.
Valerie, Xavier was the girlfriend at the time. We had met during a Christmas Eve we spent at 4, Frank Xavier, Valerie and me!
Since then, we were inseparable!
We spent all our evenings together in her home.
We argued pipelettes real!
must say that we had found a subject while Xavier!
Sometimes Xavier came join us tonight and we laughed ... well
Then, around 11:30, I left, I was recovering Franck, one returned at home, we ate, and I went to bed, never before 2 am.
So when he had to get up the next day at 7am, it was complicated.
When we add the nausea, and fatigue of pregnancy, not surprising that his job is less exciting!
Xavier was also came to us one evening before I knew that I was expecting a baby.
There was a discussion between Frank and him mad.
Xavier explained to him that he had not "dropped the case for me." Frank had replied that there could anything if I liked him, and that, moreover, that he certainly, Xavier, loved him more than he loved me, but it was like this, it was me who chose! Real kids.
But when the time arrived to leave, not knowing what Xavier road again, I took my car to put it in the direction of the highway.
There, we stopped a few moments.
He had spoken, explaining he did not understand what I was doing with a guy like that, he knew I loved him ... I always felt that any wavering in me, and if at that moment, he had suggested that we set together, I might be left with him.
But nothing specific. I doubt, but I did not let go, again!
I got home!
So I did more work, but it was not serious.
My unemployment was comfortable, and, at the time, you could enjoy it a little.
And as I was pregnant, no one took my head too much on my job search!
And then, Frank was working not only end of the day, so, we spent the day together, bubbled.
That was 7 years that I had done that work. Take some time for yourself, it was good.
the evening, I accompanied him to his job, and I went to go see Valerie.
was my only link with the outside. Apart
her aunt on the phone, and my parents, I could not see anyone.
I broke up with almost all my friends.
weekend, we went to the alley!
Me, bocce ... There were people there that 40 years minimum 90% of men, most of which was alcohol!
Whatever, I saw nothing. I took care of refreshments, registrations. We were together, that's all I saw. Once again I was desperate to be loved.
really ready for anything, even to suffer the blows.
Nothing made me leave. Once again, I do not give up, once again, I could not give up! 
I resumed relations with my mother was less tense.
But when she knew I was unemployed, she did not appreciate, I was treated to a scene!
Frank, himself, was still working in his service station.
It began in the late afternoon and ended at midnight.
Besides it had played a significant role in the fact that I dropped my job.
I was tired by the early months of pregnancy, but it was not all!
He had no driver's license because he was sweet made for driving while intoxicated, even before we moved together.
It should therefore take public transportation to go to work.
His job was pretty far from home. To get there late in the day, it was complicated, but it was possible, but at night, returning at midnight, you can not take public transportation.
Suddenly, I had to get him.
I left work so early in the morning, then instead of going home, I spent the evening with Valerie in Saint Denis.
Valerie, Xavier was the girlfriend at the time. We had met during a Christmas Eve we spent at 4, Frank Xavier, Valerie and me!
Since then, we were inseparable!
We spent all our evenings together in her home.
We argued pipelettes real!
must say that we had found a subject while Xavier!
Sometimes Xavier came join us tonight and we laughed ... well
Then, around 11:30, I left, I was recovering Franck, one returned at home, we ate, and I went to bed, never before 2 am.
So when he had to get up the next day at 7am, it was complicated.
When we add the nausea, and fatigue of pregnancy, not surprising that his job is less exciting!
Xavier was also came to us one evening before I knew that I was expecting a baby.
There was a discussion between Frank and him mad.
Xavier explained to him that he had not "dropped the case for me." Frank had replied that there could anything if I liked him, and that, moreover, that he certainly, Xavier, loved him more than he loved me, but it was like this, it was me who chose! Real kids.
But when the time arrived to leave, not knowing what Xavier road again, I took my car to put it in the direction of the highway.
There, we stopped a few moments.
He had spoken, explaining he did not understand what I was doing with a guy like that, he knew I loved him ... I always felt that any wavering in me, and if at that moment, he had suggested that we set together, I might be left with him.
But nothing specific. I doubt, but I did not let go, again!
I got home!
So I did more work, but it was not serious.
My unemployment was comfortable, and, at the time, you could enjoy it a little.
And as I was pregnant, no one took my head too much on my job search!
And then, Frank was working not only end of the day, so, we spent the day together, bubbled.
That was 7 years that I had done that work. Take some time for yourself, it was good.
the evening, I accompanied him to his job, and I went to go see Valerie.
was my only link with the outside. Apart
her aunt on the phone, and my parents, I could not see anyone.
I broke up with almost all my friends.
weekend, we went to the alley!
Me, bocce ... There were people there that 40 years minimum 90% of men, most of which was alcohol!
Whatever, I saw nothing. I took care of refreshments, registrations. We were together, that's all I saw. Once again I was desperate to be loved.
really ready for anything, even to suffer the blows.
Nothing made me leave. Once again, I do not give up, once again, I could not give up!
Monday, October 15, 2007
Should Babies Wear Anklet
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So like that, it was ... it was true, I was expecting a baby ... much better, I knew when it would happen: October 7, 1991!
I announced the news to Frank. It was like a madman!
I was a little afraid to say it around me. And if this pregnancy was not going to completion?
After all, it is often in the first month we make a miscarriage.
And if this happened?
Yet he had to announce to my mother, I could not keep it to myself.
At that time, I had just renewed dialogue with it, but it was not great.
However, since my childhood, I always spoke with my aunt (the twin sister of my mother). We phoned very often, and we talked during a crazy time!
I thought was a sort of second mother. For his part, she had no daughter, and I think she considered me more than his niece.
We had a great complicity.
So naturally, I called my aunt to tell her the news.
I dared not call my mother. It's like if I had the feeling of being obligated to admit a big mistake. Perhaps the fear that she loves me more then I do not know. But I was afraid to tell him.
So I used my aunt as an intermediary.
She phoned my mother to tell her!
Today it seems like just totally crazy situation.
What had I done wrong?
Is it just because to have this child, I had to sleep with a boy and does not assume that I have to "prove" this to my mother?
If I loved him so much, this mom, why look elsewhere? Why go with a boy, live together, sleep with?
Was not this a clear signal that I sent him: I became great.
But I did not want to become big vis-à-vis her.
me, what I wanted was his little girl again, and we catch up for lost time, she might yet take me in her arms, she loves me!
expecting him to announce that a baby was it not give up being his own, baby. Was I ready for this?!
Still, that's my aunt to announce my mother was pregnant.
My mother called me a few moments later to congratulate me.
The nine months that followed were like a long, gentle anesthesia.
Working, to concentrate on the job: impossible!
I had other priorities!
When I told my partners that I was pregnant, so I had to take 5 or 6 days off without advance notice, I felt a gap between them and me? They
hallucinating, whereas for me, everything they told me I seemed so frivolous!
The same things that I would have beaten me earlier today seemed so insignificant: a contract negotiated ... pftttt y'en will be others!
Fairly quickly I realized that hosting this baby was the only thing that mattered to me now, so we made a deal, and I found myself unemployed! I was 3 months pregnant, and it was great! 
So like that, it was ... it was true, I was expecting a baby ... much better, I knew when it would happen: October 7, 1991!
I announced the news to Frank. It was like a madman!
I was a little afraid to say it around me. And if this pregnancy was not going to completion?
After all, it is often in the first month we make a miscarriage.
And if this happened?
Yet he had to announce to my mother, I could not keep it to myself.
At that time, I had just renewed dialogue with it, but it was not great.
However, since my childhood, I always spoke with my aunt (the twin sister of my mother). We phoned very often, and we talked during a crazy time!
I thought was a sort of second mother. For his part, she had no daughter, and I think she considered me more than his niece.
We had a great complicity.
So naturally, I called my aunt to tell her the news.
I dared not call my mother. It's like if I had the feeling of being obligated to admit a big mistake. Perhaps the fear that she loves me more then I do not know. But I was afraid to tell him.
So I used my aunt as an intermediary.
She phoned my mother to tell her!
Today it seems like just totally crazy situation.
What had I done wrong?
Is it just because to have this child, I had to sleep with a boy and does not assume that I have to "prove" this to my mother?
If I loved him so much, this mom, why look elsewhere? Why go with a boy, live together, sleep with?
Was not this a clear signal that I sent him: I became great.
But I did not want to become big vis-à-vis her.
me, what I wanted was his little girl again, and we catch up for lost time, she might yet take me in her arms, she loves me!
expecting him to announce that a baby was it not give up being his own, baby. Was I ready for this?!
Still, that's my aunt to announce my mother was pregnant.
My mother called me a few moments later to congratulate me.
The nine months that followed were like a long, gentle anesthesia.
Working, to concentrate on the job: impossible!
I had other priorities!
When I told my partners that I was pregnant, so I had to take 5 or 6 days off without advance notice, I felt a gap between them and me? They
hallucinating, whereas for me, everything they told me I seemed so frivolous!
The same things that I would have beaten me earlier today seemed so insignificant: a contract negotiated ... pftttt y'en will be others!
Fairly quickly I realized that hosting this baby was the only thing that mattered to me now, so we made a deal, and I found myself unemployed! I was 3 months pregnant, and it was great!
How Do You Feel Just Before Period
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We must act quickly! Make an appointment with the gynecologist to check it all!
There is a superb clinical which just opened not far away, and it seems that the maternity service is great.
I take immediate appointment.
After waiting several days, I have my appointment.
I am there in the waiting room, surrounded by women visibly pregnant.
Secretary receives me, you open a folder.
I am uncomfortable and slightly embarrassed. So when she asks me questions, then she is charming, I feel compelled to justify myself to the fact that yes, I frequent reports, as if I was too ugly, and I am obliged to justify myself, to say that yes, I am desirable. Not on aggressive mode, but I justify myself.
The secretary is also uncomfortable with me because she feels that I'm not very good, and she reassures me.
I go back to the hallway to wait my turn, and here comes the gynecologist.
I do not know what came over me, but even before we arrived in his office, I greet him and said: I'm pregnant, but first he must get an ultrasound, because if they are twins, I am not!
Here in this hall that served as waiting room ... The gynecologist is a bit stunned by the situation. It feels great panic ... It tells me we will see, we'll look, but anyway, it does not perform abortions. Abortion
... Yes, that's what I'm talking ... abortion while I have one wish, become a mother. But what caught my saying that. What takes me to be so panicked.
Only long after, many years later that I realized what was played at that time.
all my life I had been a prisoner of twins on my mother and my aunt. Many pain of my childhood came from that and the idea of \u200b\u200bfinding myself again at the heart of a pair of twins caused such panic in me, I was ready to abort. A real panic, not a simple fear. Panic makes you lose your bearings, you can afford.
The gynecologist was wonderful. She reassured me, we took the time to take the first exam, and quickly, although this was never done, we went to do a quick ultrasound to check that.
I discovered this device, the ultrasound system.
Not easy to get an ultrasound when dealing a fat woman of 134 pounds. Yet the gynecologist is adorable. She will try the standard way, then seeing that she does not see enough, she explains that sometimes you can not see well enough, and to do a pelvic ultrasound, that is to say by introducing a small thing, not at all painful, vagina to see the inside. No comment about my weight, nothing!
Panic gave way to a boundless happiness. She turns the screen towards me and then I discovered a little trick: a baby!
A baby and a single. At this moment I really realized I was pregnant.
We returned to the Cabinet review, and there we could talk, I was calmer. We talked about the pregnancy, how it happens.
I talked about my weight and asked if it would not be a problem. She reassured me and told me that if there were, we would manage!
I left, radiant, happy, and with the urge to scream to everyone that I was expecting a baby ... But that was another matter! 
We must act quickly! Make an appointment with the gynecologist to check it all!
There is a superb clinical which just opened not far away, and it seems that the maternity service is great.
I take immediate appointment.
After waiting several days, I have my appointment.
I am there in the waiting room, surrounded by women visibly pregnant.
Secretary receives me, you open a folder.
I am uncomfortable and slightly embarrassed. So when she asks me questions, then she is charming, I feel compelled to justify myself to the fact that yes, I frequent reports, as if I was too ugly, and I am obliged to justify myself, to say that yes, I am desirable. Not on aggressive mode, but I justify myself.
The secretary is also uncomfortable with me because she feels that I'm not very good, and she reassures me.
I go back to the hallway to wait my turn, and here comes the gynecologist.
I do not know what came over me, but even before we arrived in his office, I greet him and said: I'm pregnant, but first he must get an ultrasound, because if they are twins, I am not!
Here in this hall that served as waiting room ... The gynecologist is a bit stunned by the situation. It feels great panic ... It tells me we will see, we'll look, but anyway, it does not perform abortions. Abortion
... Yes, that's what I'm talking ... abortion while I have one wish, become a mother. But what caught my saying that. What takes me to be so panicked.
Only long after, many years later that I realized what was played at that time.
all my life I had been a prisoner of twins on my mother and my aunt. Many pain of my childhood came from that and the idea of \u200b\u200bfinding myself again at the heart of a pair of twins caused such panic in me, I was ready to abort. A real panic, not a simple fear. Panic makes you lose your bearings, you can afford.
The gynecologist was wonderful. She reassured me, we took the time to take the first exam, and quickly, although this was never done, we went to do a quick ultrasound to check that.
I discovered this device, the ultrasound system.
Not easy to get an ultrasound when dealing a fat woman of 134 pounds. Yet the gynecologist is adorable. She will try the standard way, then seeing that she does not see enough, she explains that sometimes you can not see well enough, and to do a pelvic ultrasound, that is to say by introducing a small thing, not at all painful, vagina to see the inside. No comment about my weight, nothing!
Panic gave way to a boundless happiness. She turns the screen towards me and then I discovered a little trick: a baby!
A baby and a single. At this moment I really realized I was pregnant.
We returned to the Cabinet review, and there we could talk, I was calmer. We talked about the pregnancy, how it happens.
I talked about my weight and asked if it would not be a problem. She reassured me and told me that if there were, we would manage!
I left, radiant, happy, and with the urge to scream to everyone that I was expecting a baby ... But that was another matter!
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Can I Mix Trazodone And Benadryl
TO MY MOM!
My mom fell on my blog a few days ago ...
I only have one thing to say to you mom ...
I LOVE YOU. YOU ARE NOT PERFECT, YOU ARE JUST HUMAN AND IT'S LIKE THIS THAT I LOVE YOU!
me PLEASE UNDERSTAND, AND BE GONE BEYOND YOUR SENTENCE READING IN ME, BUT I have no doubt ...
is a beautiful proof of love, and I wish all children to receive a similar one day!
Your daughter who loves you so much! But you deserve it! lol 
My mom fell on my blog a few days ago ...
I only have one thing to say to you mom ...
I LOVE YOU. YOU ARE NOT PERFECT, YOU ARE JUST HUMAN AND IT'S LIKE THIS THAT I LOVE YOU!
me PLEASE UNDERSTAND, AND BE GONE BEYOND YOUR SENTENCE READING IN ME, BUT I have no doubt ...
is a beautiful proof of love, and I wish all children to receive a similar one day!
Your daughter who loves you so much! But you deserve it! lol
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Why Is My Dogs Nipple Black?
ZOOM OF LOVE (16) ZOOM
These two small lines on this small test / piece of plastic is the materialization of a dream come true.
The most important change in a lifetime, the most important event, one that can change us without ever turning back.
Becoming Mom!
I was like a madwoman, a great joy came over me.
But this little piece of plastic could it not be wrong. Could I read you trust?
Phone call to the laboratory to check the markets: Oh no, madam, it is not mistaken this test. When it's negative, sometimes we did the test too soon, but when it is positive is positive. Certainly!
Waouhhhhhh well ... I'm pregnant ... I'm having a baby! Awesome!
Well, say nothing at first. Stay calm. It's very early in pregnancy, and it can not hold, then we calmed down, catch your breath, breathe, and you blow!
must organize.
First, verify that is to say, make an appointment to the medical analysis laboratory for a blood test to be really sure, then announce it to Frank, then to my parents, then find a gynecologist to follow me because what I see from time to time is not an obstetrician.
Well, in order.
The next morning at dawn, I stood before the laboratory for blood collection.
Who knows why, when I no longer lived in this city, I went to test it there or my parents live.
So I'm taking my blood and I'm going to work, mind completely elsewhere!
The work that still remained was for me something essential seems to have no relevance today.
I have one wish, we arrive quickly at night, so I can leave and go back the result of my blood.
I leave the job early, and I have arrived at the lab.
I go, I demand results, and the secretary replied with a smile, yes, it's good!
Phew!
I pay, I open the envelope, I look at the results to be very certain.
The results of a pregnancy test is accurate.
was measured hCG is secreted from the moment you are pregnant.
can determine the age of pregnancy due to hCG.
Thus, with such unity, we are pregnant, a week or two, three, four weeks or more than X months.
I looked and I see so that is positive.
BUT, looking more ready, according to this test, I'm not pregnant a few weeks, but much more!
I turned to the secretary, and I am sharing my amazement.
She looks with me, and tell myself that I must be pregnant for longer than I think.
But this is impossible, for 6 months each, I'm doing a test ... Just last month, and it was negative. I can not get pregnant for a long time! That's impossible!
The Secretary looks at me smiling at me and told me that I must wait for the twins! El
there, the gentleman who was behind me only had the time to slide a chair under the buttocks, because I almost pass out! How
twins, but no, I do not want twins.
Before my panic, the laboratory manager comes and tells me we will look again at the results.
Moments later, the verdict is a typo and I am 3 weeks pregnant! I'm
go, I stay in my car to look at these results, I am torn between joy and doubt ... And if she had lied to me, if there were indeed two babies? " 
These two small lines on this small test / piece of plastic is the materialization of a dream come true.
The most important change in a lifetime, the most important event, one that can change us without ever turning back.
Becoming Mom!
I was like a madwoman, a great joy came over me.
But this little piece of plastic could it not be wrong. Could I read you trust?
Phone call to the laboratory to check the markets: Oh no, madam, it is not mistaken this test. When it's negative, sometimes we did the test too soon, but when it is positive is positive. Certainly!
Waouhhhhhh well ... I'm pregnant ... I'm having a baby! Awesome!
Well, say nothing at first. Stay calm. It's very early in pregnancy, and it can not hold, then we calmed down, catch your breath, breathe, and you blow!
must organize.
First, verify that is to say, make an appointment to the medical analysis laboratory for a blood test to be really sure, then announce it to Frank, then to my parents, then find a gynecologist to follow me because what I see from time to time is not an obstetrician.
Well, in order.
The next morning at dawn, I stood before the laboratory for blood collection.
Who knows why, when I no longer lived in this city, I went to test it there or my parents live.
So I'm taking my blood and I'm going to work, mind completely elsewhere!
The work that still remained was for me something essential seems to have no relevance today.
I have one wish, we arrive quickly at night, so I can leave and go back the result of my blood.
I leave the job early, and I have arrived at the lab.
I go, I demand results, and the secretary replied with a smile, yes, it's good!
Phew!
I pay, I open the envelope, I look at the results to be very certain.
The results of a pregnancy test is accurate.
was measured hCG is secreted from the moment you are pregnant.
can determine the age of pregnancy due to hCG.
Thus, with such unity, we are pregnant, a week or two, three, four weeks or more than X months.
I looked and I see so that is positive.
BUT, looking more ready, according to this test, I'm not pregnant a few weeks, but much more!
I turned to the secretary, and I am sharing my amazement.
She looks with me, and tell myself that I must be pregnant for longer than I think.
But this is impossible, for 6 months each, I'm doing a test ... Just last month, and it was negative. I can not get pregnant for a long time! That's impossible!
The Secretary looks at me smiling at me and told me that I must wait for the twins! El
there, the gentleman who was behind me only had the time to slide a chair under the buttocks, because I almost pass out! How
twins, but no, I do not want twins.
Before my panic, the laboratory manager comes and tells me we will look again at the results.
Moments later, the verdict is a typo and I am 3 weeks pregnant! I'm
go, I stay in my car to look at these results, I am torn between joy and doubt ... And if she had lied to me, if there were indeed two babies? "
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Fixed Deposit Plans In Pacl
OF LOVE (15) ZOOM
With Frank, it was a bit more settled, we wanted a child, even considering marrying.
Yet all was not rosy.
I finally realized he had a problem with alcohol, and it was not easy to manage.
When he drank, he often became violent. We were arguing, but we always ended by reconciling the pillow, Like many couples.
And then he had made efforts, he was working.
It was a gas station.
It was now over a year we lived together.
I changed job twice, and it was hard to stabilize me. I could not see my family very much.
Xavier, meanwhile, had found another girlfriend. I do not know how it happened, but we spent an evening of Christmas Eve at 4, he and his girlfriend, Valerie, Frank and me.
was just amazing!
When our eyes met, there was always something but whatever ...
Anyway I had one idea in mind, falling pregnant.
I was 25 I weighed 130 kilos.
was obsessive.
Every month when my period, I could not resist and was going to make me do a blood test.
Finally, first, I bought a test by pharmacy, but it was less simple than now, and less early, and finally I told myself that I was to check the blood!
Every month!
And every month for 6 months was negative.
Yet I had all the symptoms, nausea, fatigue, etc.. ... All those who have lived or live it know what I mean!
side job, I took the leap, and I built a box with people I knew.
premises had been installed, they financed, I was working!
Not easy to do both projects simultaneously, while managing problems at home.
With my parents, things had stabilized a bit, we saw again, it was better.
And then I built up a close friendship with Valerie, Xavier's girlfriend, whom I saw very often.
Every month, so I was really unhappy, because it was all negative.
So unfortunate that after a few months, I said Basta, stop with all this, I'm working, that's it!
The following month, one morning I woke up, I had pain in the chest. I never had pain in the chest, was pregnant, I knew it!
I start work so I buy a test drive, I arrive at work, I did ... It is ... POSITIVE!
Yesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!
Within seconds, the life changed again, everything is different! 
With Frank, it was a bit more settled, we wanted a child, even considering marrying.
Yet all was not rosy.
I finally realized he had a problem with alcohol, and it was not easy to manage.
When he drank, he often became violent. We were arguing, but we always ended by reconciling the pillow, Like many couples.
And then he had made efforts, he was working.
It was a gas station.
It was now over a year we lived together.
I changed job twice, and it was hard to stabilize me. I could not see my family very much.
Xavier, meanwhile, had found another girlfriend. I do not know how it happened, but we spent an evening of Christmas Eve at 4, he and his girlfriend, Valerie, Frank and me.
was just amazing!
When our eyes met, there was always something but whatever ...
Anyway I had one idea in mind, falling pregnant.
I was 25 I weighed 130 kilos.
was obsessive.
Every month when my period, I could not resist and was going to make me do a blood test.
Finally, first, I bought a test by pharmacy, but it was less simple than now, and less early, and finally I told myself that I was to check the blood!
Every month!
And every month for 6 months was negative.
Yet I had all the symptoms, nausea, fatigue, etc.. ... All those who have lived or live it know what I mean!
side job, I took the leap, and I built a box with people I knew.
premises had been installed, they financed, I was working!
Not easy to do both projects simultaneously, while managing problems at home.
With my parents, things had stabilized a bit, we saw again, it was better.
And then I built up a close friendship with Valerie, Xavier's girlfriend, whom I saw very often.
Every month, so I was really unhappy, because it was all negative.
So unfortunate that after a few months, I said Basta, stop with all this, I'm working, that's it!
The following month, one morning I woke up, I had pain in the chest. I never had pain in the chest, was pregnant, I knew it!
I start work so I buy a test drive, I arrive at work, I did ... It is ... POSITIVE!
Yesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!
Within seconds, the life changed again, everything is different!
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Sharp Pain From Belly Button To Where I Pee
OF LOVE (14) ZOOM
personal side, it was not super simple.
Franck was not accepted in my family, and I cut a few ties with my mother.
At home, we often harbored a friend of Frank, a little confused, and frankly addict ... But it is now that I am capable of realizing. At that time, I knew nothing about drugs ... I did not know also all alcohol ... But I would not delay to discover all this very closely. Franck was
competitions alley ... And during these competitions, there was always plenty of alcohol.
Every weekend when almost, so it was totally drunk. It took me several weeks to realize it, because I never saw people around me alcoholics.
My friends did not drink too much, and my parents either ... And for me, alcohol is the guy who siphoned off his bottle of whiskey in the morning upon waking.
There, it was not the case.
Frank did not drink alone, ever, but just with his buddies.
Then, gradually, it began to cause problems.
When I made the relationship between his alcohol intake, and behavior change.
Yet I knew he had no driving license because he had been nabbed in drunk driving, but I put it on the back of his depression, stroke, as we booze, and you get caught!
When you move so quickly with someone, you do not know, ultimately, not much of his life.
What was terrible is that outside of those moments where he had been drinking, everything was fine between us!
Well, yes, there was not much discussion I had with Xavier, but we settled down at night, alone, is sometimes looked on television in the arms of one another, and sex side, it worked rather well!
Xavier And precisely in this?
Xavier still want to see me but I refused. This eternal
Don Juan had to be plated, without having decided, and it was not easy going for him. He would not give up, or could not!
And the fact that I refuse to talk to him was not to fix things.
It was blackmail suicide ... It was really unfortunate, but in addition, it was the first time someone resisted him!
At home, it housed so a boy named Manu.
One morning, Manu croissants look down, and comes face to face with Xavier, bottom, front entrance of the building.
They know they have already crossed once during the infamous evening.
Xavier is back super. In fact, he came to kill us! He has a gun, and he wants to finish with Frank and I ! How romantic, huh ... Well
romantic, but still a bit dangerous!
Fortunately that morning, he fell first on Manu, who will take her to a cafe to discuss and calm.
He goes home and explains the situation. He told us that it would be nice to talk together.
It was therefore decided to go to a coffee together.
Xavier explains that he does not want me to leave him, he loves me, but when he sees that I have at hand a spare key to the apartment, and I am therefore installed Nothing is wrong. He threatened me suicide. I was very hard that day, and I did not quit.
After all, if he really wanted me back, I would have said, I found a job, you can sit together, we go get married or something like that, but here, I had the impression he was just grumpy because he had bitten his toy!
So I left angry and it was no longer reviewed for a long time, more contacts! 
personal side, it was not super simple.
Franck was not accepted in my family, and I cut a few ties with my mother.
At home, we often harbored a friend of Frank, a little confused, and frankly addict ... But it is now that I am capable of realizing. At that time, I knew nothing about drugs ... I did not know also all alcohol ... But I would not delay to discover all this very closely. Franck was
competitions alley ... And during these competitions, there was always plenty of alcohol.
Every weekend when almost, so it was totally drunk. It took me several weeks to realize it, because I never saw people around me alcoholics.
My friends did not drink too much, and my parents either ... And for me, alcohol is the guy who siphoned off his bottle of whiskey in the morning upon waking.
There, it was not the case.
Frank did not drink alone, ever, but just with his buddies.
Then, gradually, it began to cause problems.
When I made the relationship between his alcohol intake, and behavior change.
Yet I knew he had no driving license because he had been nabbed in drunk driving, but I put it on the back of his depression, stroke, as we booze, and you get caught!
When you move so quickly with someone, you do not know, ultimately, not much of his life.
What was terrible is that outside of those moments where he had been drinking, everything was fine between us!
Well, yes, there was not much discussion I had with Xavier, but we settled down at night, alone, is sometimes looked on television in the arms of one another, and sex side, it worked rather well!
Xavier And precisely in this?
Xavier still want to see me but I refused. This eternal
Don Juan had to be plated, without having decided, and it was not easy going for him. He would not give up, or could not!
And the fact that I refuse to talk to him was not to fix things.
It was blackmail suicide ... It was really unfortunate, but in addition, it was the first time someone resisted him!
At home, it housed so a boy named Manu.
One morning, Manu croissants look down, and comes face to face with Xavier, bottom, front entrance of the building.
They know they have already crossed once during the infamous evening.
Xavier is back super. In fact, he came to kill us! He has a gun, and he wants to finish with Frank and I ! How romantic, huh ... Well
romantic, but still a bit dangerous!
Fortunately that morning, he fell first on Manu, who will take her to a cafe to discuss and calm.
He goes home and explains the situation. He told us that it would be nice to talk together.
It was therefore decided to go to a coffee together.
Xavier explains that he does not want me to leave him, he loves me, but when he sees that I have at hand a spare key to the apartment, and I am therefore installed Nothing is wrong. He threatened me suicide. I was very hard that day, and I did not quit.
After all, if he really wanted me back, I would have said, I found a job, you can sit together, we go get married or something like that, but here, I had the impression he was just grumpy because he had bitten his toy!
So I left angry and it was no longer reviewed for a long time, more contacts!
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
Natalka Pawłowska Gliwice
OF LOVE (13) ZOOM
I lived my first intense relationship. Those that cause nothing else matters, that is curls up on his love, we share, we saw more than that.
was a moment like brackets in my life ... a time when you stop suffering, but it also stops or almost oozes out of everyday life since.
It's not really real life, but rather as a long journey, or one escapes, no longer thinks of nothing but what we saw there at the moment.
life lost count, others do not count, the only thing that counts is the other, her arms, her skin, her smell, locate and hugging.
We forget all the blows, the absence of pain, anxiety ... all gone ...
Franck does not work, he is unemployed. International driver was, but after a blow, he lost his job ... I dont care, I'm working and I have enough money for both of us.
I just settle with him.
In one week, I'll move my things from my parents, and install everything from him.
I measure today the pain of my mother. We hardly ever addressed the fact that I leave the house. She knew I saw Xavier regularly and then one day to another, she sees me pack my bags to go live with a boy she does not know, I've just met, and that does not make it super good impression!
It is very thin, his face is marked, large blue eyes, he is unemployed and does not look super cultivated, nor to be the "same world" ... well, it is not what she imagined for me ... But she also imagined something for me? Someone for me?
Frank does not talk about my weight, the subject does not even arise.
I sense in him the desire for me, simply, but not around my body fetishism.
Xavier him, I had a strange relationship with him, around the body.
When he touched me there was something different. Not in the way of touching me, but what I felt. It was almost as if I was aware of the contours of the body.
This body, he loved it, it felt ... He loved what I did not like the symbol of all my suffering ... not easy!
With Frank, it was something else. Perhaps it was simply the meeting of two emergencies, two suffering.
Finally, I am moved in with him and I broke up with Xavier, as in a week.
I kept my job, but nothing was like, now.
I had my house was for me to go shopping, eating, cleaning, and manage it as I wanted.
Things started to become difficult at my work.
Frank was still unemployed, and went to bed super late. The morning to get up, it was increasingly difficult.
I missed a few days, and was a bit less invested in my job.
Gone are the days where I stayed until 10 pm, or I'd just work on weekends.
I was doing my job, and about 7 / 8 hours, I left. As for weekends, it just was not about to come to work.
And funny how this has changed things with my employer.
While I was pregnant, but as I did twice as much as the others, this does not pose problems. But then all of a sudden, we started to recruit someone to help me, strangely beautiful, in fact, then, little by little, I was explained that she would go to some to relieve me a bit ... Finally, I ended up not out with clients ... and find myself a bit in the closet!
I was so invested in this job that it was unbearable for me.
Then in the job too, there were two weight-two measures ... you had the right to be big, but if you was working twice? 
I lived my first intense relationship. Those that cause nothing else matters, that is curls up on his love, we share, we saw more than that.
was a moment like brackets in my life ... a time when you stop suffering, but it also stops or almost oozes out of everyday life since.
It's not really real life, but rather as a long journey, or one escapes, no longer thinks of nothing but what we saw there at the moment.
life lost count, others do not count, the only thing that counts is the other, her arms, her skin, her smell, locate and hugging.
We forget all the blows, the absence of pain, anxiety ... all gone ...
Franck does not work, he is unemployed. International driver was, but after a blow, he lost his job ... I dont care, I'm working and I have enough money for both of us.
I just settle with him.
In one week, I'll move my things from my parents, and install everything from him.
I measure today the pain of my mother. We hardly ever addressed the fact that I leave the house. She knew I saw Xavier regularly and then one day to another, she sees me pack my bags to go live with a boy she does not know, I've just met, and that does not make it super good impression!
It is very thin, his face is marked, large blue eyes, he is unemployed and does not look super cultivated, nor to be the "same world" ... well, it is not what she imagined for me ... But she also imagined something for me? Someone for me?
Frank does not talk about my weight, the subject does not even arise.
I sense in him the desire for me, simply, but not around my body fetishism.
Xavier him, I had a strange relationship with him, around the body.
When he touched me there was something different. Not in the way of touching me, but what I felt. It was almost as if I was aware of the contours of the body.
This body, he loved it, it felt ... He loved what I did not like the symbol of all my suffering ... not easy!
With Frank, it was something else. Perhaps it was simply the meeting of two emergencies, two suffering.
Finally, I am moved in with him and I broke up with Xavier, as in a week.
I kept my job, but nothing was like, now.
I had my house was for me to go shopping, eating, cleaning, and manage it as I wanted.
Things started to become difficult at my work.
Frank was still unemployed, and went to bed super late. The morning to get up, it was increasingly difficult.
I missed a few days, and was a bit less invested in my job.
Gone are the days where I stayed until 10 pm, or I'd just work on weekends.
I was doing my job, and about 7 / 8 hours, I left. As for weekends, it just was not about to come to work.
And funny how this has changed things with my employer.
While I was pregnant, but as I did twice as much as the others, this does not pose problems. But then all of a sudden, we started to recruit someone to help me, strangely beautiful, in fact, then, little by little, I was explained that she would go to some to relieve me a bit ... Finally, I ended up not out with clients ... and find myself a bit in the closet!
I was so invested in this job that it was unbearable for me.
Then in the job too, there were two weight-two measures ... you had the right to be big, but if you was working twice?
Rainbow Coalition Against Islam And Violence
OF LOVE (12) ZOOM
That was actually the irreparable just committed
... This weekend has been really amazing!
On Sunday, I went home my parents in the day, exhausted.
I do not telling my parents to my personal life.
Besides I do not tell much, in general. However, I was a big talker, but impossible to have a discussion about life in general, politics, or whatever. We ate
always together at night, and sometimes we had free of laughs, but we lived just folded in on ourselves.
I think my mother had, as they say, his head in the bag. She worked hard and has always wanted to have a perfect house, not a Grain dust, wallpaper nine regularly, a nickel machine, in short, she was a little slave. Especially, at this point, my father was not very much at home. It is also she who had to manage all the paperwork, etc..
short, she was working all week in Paris, took public transport with a lot of changes, returning in the evening current, was to eat, then the rest of stewardship, and went to bed, to resume tomorrow the same thing.
arrived at the weekend. Friday night racing, then cook, etc.. On Saturday morning, cleaning, Saturday afternoon, you saw my aunt and her family, often at home, then cook for 8 / 9 persons, store, etc.., on Sunday morning, the market really early, then store, peel vegetables , cooking, setting the table in the dining room, eat, store, then take an hour to lie with my father, side by side, watching a little TV, quiet, and then, cleaning, ironing, blow drying, re dining in the evening and go to bed to resume on Monday morning!
Not easy to have time for yourself or to share!
At the time, I felt help, but when you're young, you're also a bit dumb! I have done more, my brother would have to do more, and my father too!
We do not share too many moments of confidences.
side weight, I continued my climb! Slowly but surely.
must say that since I worked, I had ample opportunity to buy what I wanted to attend the pastries, and other vendors of chocolate bars!
supply side, nothing had changed, I continued to eat as children, chicken and fries, bread, butter, chocolate, the cow laugh, and grenadine ...
Xavier called me several times the week that followed. There was a real cool between us. I did not say I slept with another, but that other occupied all my thoughts.
Throughout the week, I tried to get in touch with Frank.
He lived about ten miles from my parents. He had an apartment.
I ended up staying home on Saturday evening.
There were two or three friends with him that night.
The first thing that grabbed me when I returned home, it was the state of his apartment.
Almost no furniture, a garden table as a dining room table, an old couch, a television set on standby of old furniture covered with rugs to hide the misery while it was only the highlight.
A new world for me, that of "poverty. "Finally, I had always grown up in a privileged background, but I do really was not realized.
I did not know that an apartment could be so poorly furnished. That does not bother me, but surprised.
And I also discovered what could be the life of a single guy home alone!
We talked a lot. It was touching, and most importantly, I felt he was so desperate for someone who loves him.
He had experienced a difficult test, and was a little confused, depressed hindsight.
The next day I saw Xavier, and I felt that something was broken between him and me. I no longer felt that I experienced this dependence vis-à-vis him.
Everything seemed so complicated in our relationship, whereas with Franck everything seemed so simple. I
Franck reviewed often, and we had a symbiotic relationship very early.
We spent days in bed that we never left except to eat and drink, and yet ... I even missed days of work which had never happened.
I put my job in brackets.
Yet I climbed the ladder ... well I changed box several times, and I was now commercial director, I was making my life even better!
I changed! 
That was actually the irreparable just committed
... This weekend has been really amazing!
On Sunday, I went home my parents in the day, exhausted.
I do not telling my parents to my personal life.
Besides I do not tell much, in general. However, I was a big talker, but impossible to have a discussion about life in general, politics, or whatever. We ate
always together at night, and sometimes we had free of laughs, but we lived just folded in on ourselves.
I think my mother had, as they say, his head in the bag. She worked hard and has always wanted to have a perfect house, not a Grain dust, wallpaper nine regularly, a nickel machine, in short, she was a little slave. Especially, at this point, my father was not very much at home. It is also she who had to manage all the paperwork, etc..
short, she was working all week in Paris, took public transport with a lot of changes, returning in the evening current, was to eat, then the rest of stewardship, and went to bed, to resume tomorrow the same thing.
arrived at the weekend. Friday night racing, then cook, etc.. On Saturday morning, cleaning, Saturday afternoon, you saw my aunt and her family, often at home, then cook for 8 / 9 persons, store, etc.., on Sunday morning, the market really early, then store, peel vegetables , cooking, setting the table in the dining room, eat, store, then take an hour to lie with my father, side by side, watching a little TV, quiet, and then, cleaning, ironing, blow drying, re dining in the evening and go to bed to resume on Monday morning!
Not easy to have time for yourself or to share!
At the time, I felt help, but when you're young, you're also a bit dumb! I have done more, my brother would have to do more, and my father too!
We do not share too many moments of confidences.
side weight, I continued my climb! Slowly but surely.
must say that since I worked, I had ample opportunity to buy what I wanted to attend the pastries, and other vendors of chocolate bars!
supply side, nothing had changed, I continued to eat as children, chicken and fries, bread, butter, chocolate, the cow laugh, and grenadine ...
Xavier called me several times the week that followed. There was a real cool between us. I did not say I slept with another, but that other occupied all my thoughts.
Throughout the week, I tried to get in touch with Frank.
He lived about ten miles from my parents. He had an apartment.
I ended up staying home on Saturday evening.
There were two or three friends with him that night.
The first thing that grabbed me when I returned home, it was the state of his apartment.
Almost no furniture, a garden table as a dining room table, an old couch, a television set on standby of old furniture covered with rugs to hide the misery while it was only the highlight.
A new world for me, that of "poverty. "Finally, I had always grown up in a privileged background, but I do really was not realized.
I did not know that an apartment could be so poorly furnished. That does not bother me, but surprised.
And I also discovered what could be the life of a single guy home alone!
We talked a lot. It was touching, and most importantly, I felt he was so desperate for someone who loves him.
He had experienced a difficult test, and was a little confused, depressed hindsight.
The next day I saw Xavier, and I felt that something was broken between him and me. I no longer felt that I experienced this dependence vis-à-vis him.
Everything seemed so complicated in our relationship, whereas with Franck everything seemed so simple. I
Franck reviewed often, and we had a symbiotic relationship very early.
We spent days in bed that we never left except to eat and drink, and yet ... I even missed days of work which had never happened.
I put my job in brackets.
Yet I climbed the ladder ... well I changed box several times, and I was now commercial director, I was making my life even better!
I changed!
Sunday, October 7, 2007
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OF LOVE (11)
A life can change in a few hours and then nothing will ever be the same.
He was a charming man, but still unconscious and fickle, a little Don Juan ... Like many FA!
Me, I was 23 years, and I wanted to build.
We saw very regularly, at the time, but neither he nor I had an apartment, so it was not always easy.
I had one wish, it works, and we take a flat, then a baby ... Briefly, the cartoon that we all aspire!
We bowl with it since our childhood. Prince Charming coming to save us from the clutches of evil and takes us on his beautiful white horse ... we marry, we have many children, etc.. Bah
me was exactly what I wanted, nothing more, nothing less.
But if the prince was there, I could see the horizon or white horse, let alone nest.
One Saturday evening, we planned to go out together, and join some friends not far from my parents.
He came from Paris, where he had dragged the afternoon, and so I retrieved the Argenteuil station at the very end of the day.
I was also with one of my girlfriends in the car.
And while I almost always been subject to his every whim, I do not know why, but that day when he asked me to drive my car, I said no.
must say he was not driving very well ... lol
So there was like a cold. Then we went all three to Mery sur Oise, a small hick town of Val d'Oise, on the border of the Oise.
We went to one of her girlfriends who was big as a couple.
There was also this other big partner or not, and a couple I knew well, since I often met during rehearsals parades be organized by allegro fortissimo. The guy always looking for me look, and I felt that it was not for me about the rain and fine weather! lol
There were also people I do not know, friends of the couple who received us.
This evening was very amazing, amazing.
There was a lot of alcohol, well, not me, because I do not drink, but many were drunk!
The atmosphere was a bit murky.
I remember at some point, things have escalated a bit, and I do not quite understand how or why, I found myself in the bedroom ... but nothing happened past ...
Things were not going very well either between Xavier and me.
short, about one o'clock in the morning, Xavier wanted to go and not me. I relented, but I was exasperated.
So I escorted my girlfriend in Paris, Xavier home. In the car, with Xavier, the atmosphere was tense.
But I was determined to go back, despite my promise to return.
I went back, flirting with the boy looking at me for so long, when we went to look for both growing ...
Then, around 6 o'clock in the morning, everyone was exhausted, and someone had the idea of \u200b\u200bdrawing lots who would sleep with whom and in what room.
I had the right to sleep in the room that was already occupied by a young man I had noticed during the evening.
He sat on your stool in a corner of the room, and said nothing. He seemed unhappy. He was a friend of the couple who received us, the best friend of Sir.
I therefore in the room he was lying there asleep, and I woke up I went to bed.
He returned, I explained the situation, and he said "Well, bah, so we will have I assure that! "we left a crazy laugh, and we slept together ... 
A life can change in a few hours and then nothing will ever be the same.
He was a charming man, but still unconscious and fickle, a little Don Juan ... Like many FA!
Me, I was 23 years, and I wanted to build.
We saw very regularly, at the time, but neither he nor I had an apartment, so it was not always easy.
I had one wish, it works, and we take a flat, then a baby ... Briefly, the cartoon that we all aspire!
We bowl with it since our childhood. Prince Charming coming to save us from the clutches of evil and takes us on his beautiful white horse ... we marry, we have many children, etc.. Bah
me was exactly what I wanted, nothing more, nothing less.
But if the prince was there, I could see the horizon or white horse, let alone nest.
One Saturday evening, we planned to go out together, and join some friends not far from my parents.
He came from Paris, where he had dragged the afternoon, and so I retrieved the Argenteuil station at the very end of the day.
I was also with one of my girlfriends in the car.
And while I almost always been subject to his every whim, I do not know why, but that day when he asked me to drive my car, I said no.
must say he was not driving very well ... lol
So there was like a cold. Then we went all three to Mery sur Oise, a small hick town of Val d'Oise, on the border of the Oise.
We went to one of her girlfriends who was big as a couple.
There was also this other big partner or not, and a couple I knew well, since I often met during rehearsals parades be organized by allegro fortissimo. The guy always looking for me look, and I felt that it was not for me about the rain and fine weather! lol
There were also people I do not know, friends of the couple who received us.
This evening was very amazing, amazing.
There was a lot of alcohol, well, not me, because I do not drink, but many were drunk!
The atmosphere was a bit murky.
I remember at some point, things have escalated a bit, and I do not quite understand how or why, I found myself in the bedroom ... but nothing happened past ...
Things were not going very well either between Xavier and me.
short, about one o'clock in the morning, Xavier wanted to go and not me. I relented, but I was exasperated.
So I escorted my girlfriend in Paris, Xavier home. In the car, with Xavier, the atmosphere was tense.
But I was determined to go back, despite my promise to return.
I went back, flirting with the boy looking at me for so long, when we went to look for both growing ...
Then, around 6 o'clock in the morning, everyone was exhausted, and someone had the idea of \u200b\u200bdrawing lots who would sleep with whom and in what room.
I had the right to sleep in the room that was already occupied by a young man I had noticed during the evening.
He sat on your stool in a corner of the room, and said nothing. He seemed unhappy. He was a friend of the couple who received us, the best friend of Sir.
I therefore in the room he was lying there asleep, and I woke up I went to bed.
He returned, I explained the situation, and he said "Well, bah, so we will have I assure that! "we left a crazy laugh, and we slept together ...
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