We must act quickly! Make an appointment with the gynecologist to check it all!
There is a superb clinical which just opened not far away, and it seems that the maternity service is great.
I take immediate appointment.
After waiting several days, I have my appointment.
I am there in the waiting room, surrounded by women visibly pregnant.
Secretary receives me, you open a folder.
I am uncomfortable and slightly embarrassed. So when she asks me questions, then she is charming, I feel compelled to justify myself to the fact that yes, I frequent reports, as if I was too ugly, and I am obliged to justify myself, to say that yes, I am desirable. Not on aggressive mode, but I justify myself.
The secretary is also uncomfortable with me because she feels that I'm not very good, and she reassures me.
I go back to the hallway to wait my turn, and here comes the gynecologist.
I do not know what came over me, but even before we arrived in his office, I greet him and said: I'm pregnant, but first he must get an ultrasound, because if they are twins, I am not!
Here in this hall that served as waiting room ... The gynecologist is a bit stunned by the situation. It feels great panic ... It tells me we will see, we'll look, but anyway, it does not perform abortions. Abortion
... Yes, that's what I'm talking ... abortion while I have one wish, become a mother. But what caught my saying that. What takes me to be so panicked.
Only long after, many years later that I realized what was played at that time.
all my life I had been a prisoner of twins on my mother and my aunt. Many pain of my childhood came from that and the idea of \u200b\u200bfinding myself again at the heart of a pair of twins caused such panic in me, I was ready to abort. A real panic, not a simple fear. Panic makes you lose your bearings, you can afford.
The gynecologist was wonderful. She reassured me, we took the time to take the first exam, and quickly, although this was never done, we went to do a quick ultrasound to check that.
I discovered this device, the ultrasound system.
Not easy to get an ultrasound when dealing a fat woman of 134 pounds. Yet the gynecologist is adorable. She will try the standard way, then seeing that she does not see enough, she explains that sometimes you can not see well enough, and to do a pelvic ultrasound, that is to say by introducing a small thing, not at all painful, vagina to see the inside. No comment about my weight, nothing!
Panic gave way to a boundless happiness. She turns the screen towards me and then I discovered a little trick: a baby!
A baby and a single. At this moment I really realized I was pregnant.
We returned to the Cabinet review, and there we could talk, I was calmer. We talked about the pregnancy, how it happens.
I talked about my weight and asked if it would not be a problem. She reassured me and told me that if there were, we would manage!
I left, radiant, happy, and with the urge to scream to everyone that I was expecting a baby ... But that was another matter!
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